Sleepless Mother Learns to Pray and Trust God

I was wide awake with worry and fear. I was stewing and could not sleep. Most of my worries are about bringing up my children to be good citizens, who love the Lord, are smart, kind, loving, and all the things a parent tries to instill in her children. I kept thinking that I didn't measure up. These are all lies from the pit. I know that all I have to do is ask God for wisdom and help and He promises to be there for me. So this is what I did......

Once again I knew where to go for the answer to my worries and fears. It's to the Lord and His Word. I decided that it didn't matter what time it was. Now, if I were an experienced blogger I would have shown a picture of the clock. Well, I will tell you. It read 3:00 am! I got up and prayed and read my Bible. I made the coffee! I was serious! I listed all the concerns for every family member in my journal. Then I prayed in faith for each one. I felt so light and joyful afterwards.

I can trust the Lord. He will help me to be wise in teaching and training my children. It took a huge load off my mind to list out my concerns for each child, and give them to Him. Jesus said: Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. Matt. 11:29

He tends his flock like a shepherd:
He gathers the lambs in his arms and carries them close to His heart; He gently leads those that have young.Isaiah 40:11.

God is faithful. As my children get older I can see His hand of protection, guidance, and blessing. All things work together for good to them that love God, Romans 8:28. I can trust him, and I can sleep peacefully tonight. Guilt is the biggest problem for the homeschool mom. I do believe most guilt is from Satan, but some guilt could be our conscience. It could be the Holy Spirit telling us to stay in tune with HIM. When guilt comes...on my knees I go. I have learned. It has taken me many years, but I have learned that the safest place to be is in total dependence on the Lord.